" I Am Scared Of Living"- Read A Suicide Note Of The Late KNH Doctor
The late Lydia Wahura, a 35-year-old doctor who was found dead on Saturday, June 12, in her car at the Kenyatta National Hospital having left a suicide note to her brother before she died. Wahura was a post-graduate medical student at the University Of Nairobi, College Of Health Sciences.
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Kilimani OCPD Muturi Mbogo said that Wahuru had sent an email to her brother, family members and close friends, detailing why she wanted to take her own life. "The post morterm was done and we have already ascertained the death was caused by chemicals. Some samples have also been taken for analysis to a government chemist to know the type of drugs that she administered in her body," Mbogo stated.
Part of an email Wahura wrote reads;
“I am so so so so sorry but I don’t expect forgiveness. I am scared of dying but I am more scared of living...Life is not what I expected."
On Saturday, June 12, Wahura arrived for her usual classes at around 9 am but left 30 minutes later and went to her vehicle. Hours later, the Head of Security at the School of Medicine, George Onyango found the body lying at the back of the car. Wahura's body was taken to the Chiromo mortuary and a postmortem conducted on Tuesday, June 15.
In a Facebook statement Wahura wrote in December 2020, she decried that many doctors lived in trauma and worked under deplorable conditions. “I don't think I'll ever be able to put into words how much losing patients I knew never needed to die has messed with my mental health. And almost all of us have such stories."
